Leg Day

Today is Sunday so therefore leg day. I did a shorter leg day on Wednesday also so my motivation is not very high at the moment. I would rather spend my day out by the pool than doing legs, but there will be time for that this afternoon. Last night was delicious. We made kebabs. So much meat! I love it. For my first part of breakfast I had toast with peanut butter and banana.

It was delicious and filling. However, I may be having a two part breakfast today. Yesterday I had the same thing for breakfast and half-way through my workout I started getting hunger cramps. This week has been good at the gym, but my motivation has still been down. Also, I have been drinking beer too much again. Now that my wedding is only about 4 months away, I really need to cut back and also start really watching my food. I know I do not need to lose weight for the wedding, but it would be nice to just really tone up and slim down.

Chris and I are going to San Diego on Wednesday and I am SUPER excited! It's been far too long since I have had a vacation (unless you count camping...which I don't).

Today has been rough.

Today was not the best day ever. I don't really want to go into why because it is mostly inconsequential. Sometimes, you just have a bad day....and mine usually fall on a Tuesday for whatever reason. My workout motivation and intensity has been waning recently. I'm just...tired. I've heard a lot of people tell me recently that I have lost weight (which I haven't...at all...in months) to which I have to explain that it's all just in muscle form now. Hearing those things in a small, minuscule way, makes me want to lose more, it makes me obsess about it. It's not necessarily happening yet, but that little voice can creep back in sometimes. I have to remind myself just how much better it is to be healthy. I think I've just gotten to the point where I am sick of thinking about what workout I am going to, and what foods I will have to bring to work to make sure my workout will be a good one, and when I will get my cardio in, etc...I hate to say it, but I am approaching the point where I think I need a solid, lazy weekend. At least San Diego is coming soon! I really just need a vacation. I also need to start planning the fact that I want to apply to PT school. Life needs to slow down a little bit. I just have to remember, in a few months I will be marrying my best friend, and really no matter what happens I will have a good support system. I just need to stop over thinking and just DO things that feel good and make me happy. The world will not end if I skip a chest day, or half-ass a bicep workout. It is time to just chill out a little bit and focus on what I need to do.

I sort of feel better already just putting all this into a text so it can be organized in my mind a bit. Okay, deep breath, everything will be fine!

Lack of Motivation

I'm having trouble getting motivated today to go to the gym. Sunday is leg day, and I thoroughly enjoy leg day, but today I am just tired. Now the question is, how do I convince myself to go when I do not want to? Fortunately, I am very good at talking myself into getting to the gym. The first thing I will do is get a good breakfast in my system. If I'm tired like this, it usually means I need something healthy to eat with a good amount of protein. Also, coffee and a lot of water helps. The second way to get myself there is to just throw on my workout spandex and go before my brain has a chance to make excuses. The third is knowing I have people expecting me to do and I cannot be the "lazy" one that makes excuses. The fourth thing I will do (which I try not to do often) is use the reward system. I don't think this is that practical very often because being healthy is reward in and of itself  BUT some days I just offer myself something extra if I make it to the gym.

On that note, there are a few pieces from modcloth that I really want to purchase.

I think there earrings are just adorable!

I love bows so I am obsessed with this shirt!

I do need to look at new swim suits because I am going to San Diego in a few weeks! I am so excited to go! Chris and I are going alone, which will be nice for some private time together. 

Okay, time for some breakfast and working on dragging myself to the gym. I think part of the issue is that I would rather do something different other than legs today. Something more dynamic, more fun....however, my hamstrings do need some love.

I made something delicious!

Last night I made something sooooo good! I found it here! 

It is a "pasta" dish made with zucchini and squash as the noodles. It also has onion, parsley, lemon juice, garlic, garbanzo beans, and Parmesan cheese. The link above will get you to the youtube tutorial. I'm devouring the last of it right now and I wish I had more! It is super healthy (especially if you leave out the cheese, but who would want to do that!).

My wokout today was exhausting, but that is in part because I woke up at 4 am and could not go back to sleep. A nap is definitely in my future. I ran today and my calves, which barely recovered from Wed, are screaming at me again!

Coffee Talk

Yet again in my life I am having trouble with alcohol. Not a lot of alcohol, but I've had too much. I don't need a beer (or two...or three) after work on a Wednesday. It is just extra calories. Tonight I had half a beer and then decided I didn't want to finish it and made coffee instead. I don't know what's wrong with me recently that I feel like I need to drink every night. There must be some boredom in my life. Maybe it is because Chris has rekindled his world of warcraft habit and is raiding again. Regardless, that is no excuse! My workouts have been good; they have been strong. I took two rest days this week although I am regretting not going today. The past two days I did new and different workouts so that is sort of exciting. I have been having troubles with my left hip recently though which is making running and rowing difficult. I was rowing yesterday and had to stop after 5 minutes because my hip flexor was just killing me. Ah, old age. Tomorrow is back to a normal chest, triceps, and shoulder workout. I will probably do some cardio as well. Chris and I have a trip planned to San Diego at the end of the month so I am needing that extra cardio (especially since I have been drinking too much!) On the plus side, I have been good about eating meals throughout the day so I have no longer been binge eating at night!

Today after work I did a lot of house cleaning, but our house still seems to dirty. With two dogs and a cat, things get so dusty and covered in fur and it is so frustrating! I'm thinking about making a chore list, but I'm not sure how on-board Chris would be. Or how on-board I would be for that matter. Some days I just don't care enough to clean anything. My kitchen and living room are clean right now and I love it. I need to vacuum the couch though...*sigh* it never ends and I don't even have real children yet.

I am trying to decide something healthy and different to try to make this weekend. To pinterest I go!

Birthdays, Food, etc...

This week was my birthday so it was a lot of fun and food and beer. Workouts have been good with the exception of cardio. I have to incorporate it more, but sometimes, after I have been at the gym for so long, I just want to go home. As the wedding gets closer it is something I may adjust. I may cut out a few of the strengthening exercises (do I really need to do 3 different triceps exercises on Sat) so I have more time for cardio. We will see. I know how important the strength training is and I love how I feel with it. I have been more into the HIIT with my cardio. It makes me less bored and really forces me to work hard. Today is leg day. After that I am meeting my mom and grandma for coffee.

Yesterday Chris and I made kebabs. They were delicious! I want to make them against, but with steak and more mushrooms! Summer is officially here in Tucson. The high yesterday was around 104. Today will not be much better.

Yummy yummy!